Kelley says...........
When I was younger, I would see other women in church who loved the Lord so much. They seemed so wise, so strong in the Lord, so "perfect". I wondered how in the world someone came to know the Lord in that way. I would worship God, I would pray, I would read the word and do devotions to no avail. I loved God. But I didn't have what they appeared to have.
I work on staff at a church. Now it seems I am on the other side of all that. I know people who don't know those of us on staff us have thoughts that we are untouchable, we are perfect and have it all figured out. I'm guessing there are people who like me wondered how you get to know God so well and love him so deeply. Let me just tell you that if you ever feel like this or have these thoughts that they are straight from hell. I look back at those ladies and the discovery I made about them is that they not only knew God so well but they also knew their enemy.
I'm sure people love God. I'm sure there are "good" Christians. You know, go to church on Sunday's, don't commit murder, their "good" people so their good, right? Well, what I have discovered is that I am now the person who loves God SO deeply and that he is my everything. And the enemy has tried to take EVERYTHING and I mean EVERYTHING from me in my 41 years of life. He has taken a child from me. He has taken a parent from me. He has tried to take my life and is now trying to take more. I thought after Deryl lost his job in 2009 that nothing could be worse than that. Then in 2010 when I got cancer I said to myself that I wouldn't dare say it couldn't get worse. As it turns out, it doesn't matter if you say it or not. If you are doing God's work and you are reaching out to others.....if you are seeking God with all your heart and being obedient to him, you better watch out. This isn't a game and definitely no walk in the park. If you truly want to be "ALL IN" for God you are going to HAVE to pay a price.
I don't feel like I can go into what is going on in my life right now on a public forum but it looks like I put my boxing gloves up a little too soon. I feel like if you are a sold out believer, you better put those gloves on and KEEP them on. The enemy is out to kill, steal and completely destroy. And he will stop and absolutely NOTHING to accomplish it. So if you have ever looked at me or read my blog or felt those feelings about someone else and wished you could have their looks, job, kid's, marriage, their life because you have them on a pedestal, think again. Most likely they have been to hell and back many times. Most likely they are either currently IN the ring fighting or the bell has just rung and they took a quick breath and are right back to fighting the next round. If you see someone you aspire to be like, PRAY. PRAY with all your might for that person because they didn't become that overnight. Boy would it be so much easier to just live a life that was completely selfish. Just do whatever I wanted whenever I felt like it without any concern if I was living God's way.
Funny thing is, I have been studying the book of James every single day this year. Right from the start it says to count it all joy when you go through trials and that it is building character in you and making you able to handle anything that comes your way. I know it isn't by accident God lead me to read this chapter and commit to reading it all year. But come on already, when do I get a break. I think maybe it is selfish of me to want a break. Jesus didn't get one. Who am I to expect anything more than the one who paid the ultimate price.
I can't make it alone. I know people prayed for me regularly last year and maybe you thought all is well and haven't prayed anymore. Prayer warriors, I am asking you to pray for me and my family like you have never prayed for me before. I have had a recurrence. Not physically, but emotionally and an attack on my family like I have never endured before to this degree. Please pray for God to give us wisdom and for a hedge of protection around us. That God would give angels charge over us and that he would go before us as he says he will do in his word in Deuteronomy 31:8...."The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Clear vision
Kelley says......................
For most of my life I wore either contacts or glasses to see. About 6 years ago, I had Lasik surgery. My vision was so bad that I was right on the border of my eyes being too bad to even having the procedure done. They told me going into it that I could possibly have to get it done twice. Well, they were right. I had to have it done a second time 1 year later. It was great for about 2 more years and then I could tell my vision was no longer clear and sharp.
Last year I got glasses to wear at night because I could no longer drive at night. They worked great but I have always hated wearing glasses. The more I wore them, the more I realized how much I needed them. So last week, I decided to just go ahead and go get contacts. I found myself getting really bummed out. I mean, I have a really weak stomach and Lasik surgery is really gross. The thought that I had gone through this two times and here I am having to get my vision corrected with lenses was just really frustrating.
But as I looked for another perspective I thought of what a miracle it is that I "can" see. I may not see 20/20 but I can see. If there was an emergency in the middle of the night and I didn't have time to grab my glasses or put on my contacts, I "could" drive if I had to. I can go to the pool or the water park and not have to worry about glasses or contacts ever again. When I wake up, I can see my alarm clock. My vision was so bad before Lasik that I couldn't do any of these things before. What a blessing!
As I started pondering these things I started thinking about this past year. How although I went through so much physically and emotionally, I am so radically changed spiritually. Someone told a breast cancer patient about me and we connected on the phone last night. Unfortunately, this ladies cancer has metastasized to her bones and it is just not a good situation. But I was able to talk to her for over an hour on the phone and hold it totally together. It was such a good feeling for me to actually be a support for someone else. When I first ever thought about helping other women I never saw myself reaching out to people who I know will die from this disease. But then God really convicted me that I could help any woman at any stage of this terrible disease because if they have the Lord, they have hope. I just kept holding onto that during our conversation.
No matter what you might be facing, cancer or disease/sickness, divorce, debt, whatever it may be, if you have God......YOU HAVE HOPE!! Sometimes life can seem so overwhelming and sometimes like life would be so much easier on the "other side". Sometimes we get so stuck in the now that that is all we can focus on. It is during those times when we have let our thoughts take control of everything. If this is you, catch yourself.........STOP IT! And know that your hope can only be found in God.
For most of my life I wore either contacts or glasses to see. About 6 years ago, I had Lasik surgery. My vision was so bad that I was right on the border of my eyes being too bad to even having the procedure done. They told me going into it that I could possibly have to get it done twice. Well, they were right. I had to have it done a second time 1 year later. It was great for about 2 more years and then I could tell my vision was no longer clear and sharp.
Last year I got glasses to wear at night because I could no longer drive at night. They worked great but I have always hated wearing glasses. The more I wore them, the more I realized how much I needed them. So last week, I decided to just go ahead and go get contacts. I found myself getting really bummed out. I mean, I have a really weak stomach and Lasik surgery is really gross. The thought that I had gone through this two times and here I am having to get my vision corrected with lenses was just really frustrating.
But as I looked for another perspective I thought of what a miracle it is that I "can" see. I may not see 20/20 but I can see. If there was an emergency in the middle of the night and I didn't have time to grab my glasses or put on my contacts, I "could" drive if I had to. I can go to the pool or the water park and not have to worry about glasses or contacts ever again. When I wake up, I can see my alarm clock. My vision was so bad before Lasik that I couldn't do any of these things before. What a blessing!
As I started pondering these things I started thinking about this past year. How although I went through so much physically and emotionally, I am so radically changed spiritually. Someone told a breast cancer patient about me and we connected on the phone last night. Unfortunately, this ladies cancer has metastasized to her bones and it is just not a good situation. But I was able to talk to her for over an hour on the phone and hold it totally together. It was such a good feeling for me to actually be a support for someone else. When I first ever thought about helping other women I never saw myself reaching out to people who I know will die from this disease. But then God really convicted me that I could help any woman at any stage of this terrible disease because if they have the Lord, they have hope. I just kept holding onto that during our conversation.
No matter what you might be facing, cancer or disease/sickness, divorce, debt, whatever it may be, if you have God......YOU HAVE HOPE!! Sometimes life can seem so overwhelming and sometimes like life would be so much easier on the "other side". Sometimes we get so stuck in the now that that is all we can focus on. It is during those times when we have let our thoughts take control of everything. If this is you, catch yourself.........STOP IT! And know that your hope can only be found in God.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
It's a new day
Kelley says..........
I am so glad to report that I am doing SO much better. I received another brand new sewing machine!! My first day to start sewing gowns will be Feb 5th. I'm so excited to get started.
When I was first diagnosed, a friend of mine from church told me about her sister who had gone through breast cancer and was just finishing up chemo. She gave me her e-mail address and we started communicating. She lives in Chicago. She helped me SO much throughout my journey. Well, as it turns out, she ended up having to go back and get a double mastectomy because she had a genetic test and it came back positive. So I was able to turn around and give back to her since I had already gone through that! It felt great to be a support to her after she had been such a big support to me.
Last weekend, she came down to Texas to visit her sister and me and my family got to go meet her!! It was such a cool thing. When we met it was like we had known each other our whole lives! God is just so amazing.
I had the opportunity to co-lead another Life-Coaching Workshop last Wednesday - Sunday. I love doing it and love working with such high level leaders. And I always get so much out of it too. But above all, it always amazes me that God completely delivered me of my fear of public speaking. Has to be one of the most miraculous things that has ever happened to me before. I think we all have so very much to offer the world and that we could accomplish such great things if it weren't for our own fears. Sometimes, we HAVE to just do it afraid!!
God sure knew what he was doing when he delivered me from that fear because he knew what was coming up in my future. God sees the BIG picture and we only see today. All the more reason for us to trust him fully with our tomorrows. I know sometimes "right now" doesn't make any sense to us. But we just have to remember that he has it all under control and just because he might not answer our prayers exactly the way we want him to does NOT mean he hasn't answered!!
I challenge each one of you to step out of your comfort zone and do something you are afraid to do. Even if it is something small. Baby steps will be a great start!!
I am so glad to report that I am doing SO much better. I received another brand new sewing machine!! My first day to start sewing gowns will be Feb 5th. I'm so excited to get started.
When I was first diagnosed, a friend of mine from church told me about her sister who had gone through breast cancer and was just finishing up chemo. She gave me her e-mail address and we started communicating. She lives in Chicago. She helped me SO much throughout my journey. Well, as it turns out, she ended up having to go back and get a double mastectomy because she had a genetic test and it came back positive. So I was able to turn around and give back to her since I had already gone through that! It felt great to be a support to her after she had been such a big support to me.
Last weekend, she came down to Texas to visit her sister and me and my family got to go meet her!! It was such a cool thing. When we met it was like we had known each other our whole lives! God is just so amazing.
I had the opportunity to co-lead another Life-Coaching Workshop last Wednesday - Sunday. I love doing it and love working with such high level leaders. And I always get so much out of it too. But above all, it always amazes me that God completely delivered me of my fear of public speaking. Has to be one of the most miraculous things that has ever happened to me before. I think we all have so very much to offer the world and that we could accomplish such great things if it weren't for our own fears. Sometimes, we HAVE to just do it afraid!!
God sure knew what he was doing when he delivered me from that fear because he knew what was coming up in my future. God sees the BIG picture and we only see today. All the more reason for us to trust him fully with our tomorrows. I know sometimes "right now" doesn't make any sense to us. But we just have to remember that he has it all under control and just because he might not answer our prayers exactly the way we want him to does NOT mean he hasn't answered!!
I challenge each one of you to step out of your comfort zone and do something you are afraid to do. Even if it is something small. Baby steps will be a great start!!
Monday, January 10, 2011
Surviving
Kelley says...........
Well, it turns out that surviving isn't the cake walk I guess I thought it would be. Let me start out by reassuring you that I am okay. I don't blog as often as I used to. It seems like I blog in a highly emotional state. Whether it be high on life, an aha moment in my life, a really down and scary place, etc. Basically you either get the best of me or the worst. I think if you are a follower of my blog you know I am real to the core. I don't know how to be any other way. So just know that in between blogs, things are usually going pretty well. Things to blog about, moments of inspiration and such just don't come to me on a daily basis. I have to feel them deep within my own being before I am willing to share it with the world.
This weekend was very tough. I hurt my husband emotionally in a pretty bad way. Something I am definitely not proud of. Saturday was definitely not good in the McElreath household. Things were bad enough that we didn't even go to church. If you know me personally, you know that was pretty bad. This hasn't happened to us in 17 years of being together so it was emotionally draining for all of us. On Sunday as we talked through all of it, I said to Deryl that every single thing that makes me a woman has changed. I thought I would welcome in 2011 and move on......next chapter. It is looking like that just isn't how it works for a breast cancer survivor and maybe not any cancer survivor for that matter.
What makes a woman a woman? Her hair, her nails, her breasts, her sexuality, among many other things. Due to either surgery, chemo or medication all of these things have been altered. And yet again, I can't imagine how my mom went through this with such a horrible husband. She basically went through the emotional side of it alone which continues to break my heart. I had absolutely NO idea. I guess though if you don't experience it yourself how could you know. How can anyone know the thoughts in your own head. No one but God can......NO ONE.
One thing I know for sure is that the enemy is out to kill, steal and destroy. And he will stop at nothing to accomplish it. As women, we already let our thoughts get away from us. And it doesn't take many that get out of hand before we spiral out of control.
We see things from the lens of our past. I just have to keep reminding myself that if my thoughts are getting crazy, I have to step back and think....what from my past is causing me to think these thoughts about THIS situation? Am I reacting or responding? I don't know if this is helping you at all but it is sure helping me!
When I think over what brought me to this point, I think it started creeping up when I would think about having to go in for my first 3 month check up. That is coming up at the end of the month. It is just a reminder that I am a cancer patient. Before cancer, I NEVER had to go to the doctor. The thought of having to go see doctors and have lab work every single time for the rest of my life just doesn't sound appealing. I just don't like it. I so wish that I could just get a prescription and be fine. I'm still at a point where I feel like planning my life isn't in my own hands. But I guess it never was.
But ultimately, if my blog helps other survivors know that they aren't alone and they can read it and feel "normal", I will have accomplished my mission in life. And in case you weren't aware, I am available for one-on-one support to ANY breast cancer patient you know or ever meet free of charge. I think the more I reach out to help others, the more I myself will heal.
Kelley
Well, it turns out that surviving isn't the cake walk I guess I thought it would be. Let me start out by reassuring you that I am okay. I don't blog as often as I used to. It seems like I blog in a highly emotional state. Whether it be high on life, an aha moment in my life, a really down and scary place, etc. Basically you either get the best of me or the worst. I think if you are a follower of my blog you know I am real to the core. I don't know how to be any other way. So just know that in between blogs, things are usually going pretty well. Things to blog about, moments of inspiration and such just don't come to me on a daily basis. I have to feel them deep within my own being before I am willing to share it with the world.
This weekend was very tough. I hurt my husband emotionally in a pretty bad way. Something I am definitely not proud of. Saturday was definitely not good in the McElreath household. Things were bad enough that we didn't even go to church. If you know me personally, you know that was pretty bad. This hasn't happened to us in 17 years of being together so it was emotionally draining for all of us. On Sunday as we talked through all of it, I said to Deryl that every single thing that makes me a woman has changed. I thought I would welcome in 2011 and move on......next chapter. It is looking like that just isn't how it works for a breast cancer survivor and maybe not any cancer survivor for that matter.
What makes a woman a woman? Her hair, her nails, her breasts, her sexuality, among many other things. Due to either surgery, chemo or medication all of these things have been altered. And yet again, I can't imagine how my mom went through this with such a horrible husband. She basically went through the emotional side of it alone which continues to break my heart. I had absolutely NO idea. I guess though if you don't experience it yourself how could you know. How can anyone know the thoughts in your own head. No one but God can......NO ONE.
One thing I know for sure is that the enemy is out to kill, steal and destroy. And he will stop at nothing to accomplish it. As women, we already let our thoughts get away from us. And it doesn't take many that get out of hand before we spiral out of control.
We see things from the lens of our past. I just have to keep reminding myself that if my thoughts are getting crazy, I have to step back and think....what from my past is causing me to think these thoughts about THIS situation? Am I reacting or responding? I don't know if this is helping you at all but it is sure helping me!
When I think over what brought me to this point, I think it started creeping up when I would think about having to go in for my first 3 month check up. That is coming up at the end of the month. It is just a reminder that I am a cancer patient. Before cancer, I NEVER had to go to the doctor. The thought of having to go see doctors and have lab work every single time for the rest of my life just doesn't sound appealing. I just don't like it. I so wish that I could just get a prescription and be fine. I'm still at a point where I feel like planning my life isn't in my own hands. But I guess it never was.
But ultimately, if my blog helps other survivors know that they aren't alone and they can read it and feel "normal", I will have accomplished my mission in life. And in case you weren't aware, I am available for one-on-one support to ANY breast cancer patient you know or ever meet free of charge. I think the more I reach out to help others, the more I myself will heal.
Kelley
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Excitement Brewing!!
Kelley says.......
For anyone who doesn't know yet...........me and a friend from church are starting a sewing ministry. We're going to call it "Sewing for TaTa's". When I was first diagnosed, this friend made me two hospital gowns to wear to all my doctors appointments. I always got compliments on them and it just made me feel special that I got to bring my own gown rather than wear those old worn out ones they give you to wear.
We have had several people donate material to our ministry. I have started talking about this more and more and on December 22nd, a package arrived at my house. A lady from church who knew I was in need of a portable sewing machine had purchased a brand new sewing machine for me and had it delivered to my house!! Then on Sunday at church, two ladies who love to sew told me they would absolutely LOVE to help us sew. SO, we will be getting together once a month to sew hospital gowns for breast cancer patients!
Even my plastic surgeons office wants some! I am getting so excited. I also found out today that I can volunteer here in Arlington at a cancer center starting next month instead of having to drive to Ft. Worth. That is such exciting news for me because I will be able to volunteer much more often.
I am still feeling the JOY!! I was going to make a video blog about it but just haven't had the time. But I will soon so you guys can see my hair!
Hope you all have a wonderful New Year's!!
Kelley
For anyone who doesn't know yet...........me and a friend from church are starting a sewing ministry. We're going to call it "Sewing for TaTa's". When I was first diagnosed, this friend made me two hospital gowns to wear to all my doctors appointments. I always got compliments on them and it just made me feel special that I got to bring my own gown rather than wear those old worn out ones they give you to wear.
We have had several people donate material to our ministry. I have started talking about this more and more and on December 22nd, a package arrived at my house. A lady from church who knew I was in need of a portable sewing machine had purchased a brand new sewing machine for me and had it delivered to my house!! Then on Sunday at church, two ladies who love to sew told me they would absolutely LOVE to help us sew. SO, we will be getting together once a month to sew hospital gowns for breast cancer patients!
Even my plastic surgeons office wants some! I am getting so excited. I also found out today that I can volunteer here in Arlington at a cancer center starting next month instead of having to drive to Ft. Worth. That is such exciting news for me because I will be able to volunteer much more often.
I am still feeling the JOY!! I was going to make a video blog about it but just haven't had the time. But I will soon so you guys can see my hair!
Hope you all have a wonderful New Year's!!
Kelley
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Joy UNSPEAKABLE
Kelley says................
Ya know, it was 12:45am a couple of days ago when I blogged. I love going to sleep early and waking up early. But since having my last surgery, I am not supposed to lay on my sides and I am such a side sleeper. Even with medication, I have not been getting much sleep. Here it is, 12:53 am and I am wide awake.
I have been so excited and so on fire it is just amazing. This joy is really amazing. I mean, that night when I blogged last, I was literally trying to figure out if I was that excited and talking non-stop because of any of my medication. I realized that that wasn't it but then I remembered that while I was at Target I downed a Peppermint Mocha because I didn't want to carry it around in the store with my other items. So I was convinced that was it because I normally don't drink coffee. Then I woke up the next morning and I was STILL SO excited and talking non-stop and just full of unspeakable JOY!!
I have been talking this out and trying to figure it out with all my heart. You can't even imagine! I am doing things that are SO not like me. And I mean SOOOOOO not like me. I've talked this through for hours with Deryl and discovered that every single time a miracle happens in my life, it is when I get totally fed up. When I get to my wits end. When I scream at God and literally say, "If you are a man that cannot lie, WHY is your word SO contradicting?!!? The scriptures that are written on my heart are a lie? That is what it seems like because I don't feel you and you aren't here! I need you to show me you are real God! Please God! But God I love you so much that even if you never show me these truths here on earth I will STILL love you. EVEN if there ended up not being a heaven or a hell, I'd STILL love you and serve you because you are my absolute everything. Without YOU, there would be no me.
I have realized in the last few days that I truly have never in my life felt joy. True joy. I was happy when my children were born and at my wedding and at other "moments" in my life but NEVER, EVER joyful. I mean seriously, if I won the lottery I would be like "Well, that is so exciting". When something great happens, I would never jump up and down or do anything crazy. My boss is on a regular basis walking around being so stinkin' happy and clapping his hands SO loud. It really gets on my nerves sometimes because he is so happy. But now I realize it is JOY. I have really, really, really NEVER experienced this and I am so grateful. I have a story. I know most of you know what you think is my story. But I knew back in September God was starting to work on me to share another part of my story to save even more lives. I today am so scared to tell this particular part of my story. But I know in a matter of time I will have to be obedient so please be patient with me. It will happen in God's time and I know in my heart it will be amazing.
Wow! What a year. I've got it goin' on!!! And it took me my lifetime to see myself. A good friend of mine, the one who actually is responsible for my salvation said to me yesterday "You see me". And it made my day. What a compliment, to see someone through all the !@#$ and still love them right where they are at. THAT is joy. THAT is God's love. THAT my dear friend is GOD'S GREATEST COMMANDMENT!!
More scriptures on Joy....
You make known to me the path of life;
in your presence there is fullness of joy;
at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.
in your presence there is fullness of joy;
at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.
When I discovered your words, I devoured them.
They are my joy and my heart’s delight,
for I bear your name,
O Lord God of Heaven’s Armies
They are my joy and my heart’s delight,
for I bear your name,
O Lord God of Heaven’s Armies
These things I have spoken to you, that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be full.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
The greatest day of my life!!!!!
Have you seen the new 2011 Camero's? Oh goodness they are so fine!! I saw one yesterday that was the most beautiful red I have ever seen. I sure would love to have one of those!! But you know, before this new one, you couldn't convince me a new Camero could be better than the old ones. That is kinda like me today. FINALLY, I am baaaaaaaack!!!!!! It is me but only a much better version. Let me explain.
Excitement has been building within me since November 22nd when I had my reconstruction surgery. I mean, I have so much to be grateful for. My hair is coming back, I got my perfect boobs, no more chemo, I feel great, I'm alive! I have wondered for MONTHS if I would ever be like my old self. Like those old Camero's. But you know what, the 2011 version is WAY better.....who would have thought?
The last three days I have felt something within me building up. Something great. I have had such an incredible week. Monday, a friend came by and gave me a very special gift. The same day since I couldn't drive, another very dear friend brought me a homemade lunch and we got to visit and I don't even think we mentioned the word Cancer! Tuesday, I started having much less pain from the surgery. Today, I have felt great. I woke up this morning and was straightening up the chairs in my kitchen and I, for no reason at all just said out loud...... "This is the day that YOU have made Lord and I WILL rejoice and be glad in it". I went in to work and had a very productive day.
All day, this "something" was continuing to build. Almost with every breath it got bigger and bigger. I went to our annual Christmas service where we sing carols, make cards and ornaments, everyone eats together, it is just a ton of fun. I went there tonight with hair and no hat or scarf. I talked to so many of my friends and we didn't talk about cancer. I even went in the bathroom and showed one of my peeps my new boobs! I had a blast. I felt like "ME" again! I guess I just feel like this thing is FINALLY coming to a close and I can move on with my life.
Just thinking about New Year's Eve is so exciting to me. It is going to be the most special New Year's Eve of my life. God is doing something in me....Something BIG. I don't know what it is but I can feel it. Let me just tell you that although nothing MAJOR has happened to me, today has been the BEST day of my ENTIRE life. Now isn't that just something? The fact that I can have true joy for no big reason is amazing to me. The verse that says "The joy of the Lord is my strength" has come alive in my heart.
I know at some point all of us have felt like a nobody. Maybe this is you. I have felt this way many times. But oh dear child, God has already put something so amazing in you. HE made you and HE loves you just the way you are right now. He loves you and desires SO very much for your life. Do you realize that if you saw yourself the way HE sees you, you would do some seriously amazing things!! I think we should all start praying for God to allow us to see others how he sees them and to allow us to see ourselves like HE does!! I believe that we would all have TRUE JOY. I can't even explain how I feel right now. I'm on top of the world, the universe. Jumping up and down on the inside. It is 12:45 am and I am WIDE awake so full of joy.
It is sad to say that I don't think this has happened to me not one single day in my ENTIRE life. And I am betting there are many of you who can relate to me. I can't even describe this feeling of joy. It is just PURE joy. So I think God is showing me to CHOOSE joy. When I am down and life has thrown me a curve ball, I can CHOOSE joy!!
I have been questioning God. I have been having some real "Come to Jesus" talks with him! LOL
I have been asking some hard questions of him and throwing his own word at him asking him to prove it to me. No matter what!!.....I will love Him. But if His word is true then he needs to start showing me, that is for sure and this is exactly how I have been talking to Him. Well this week, He is showing me. And it started with the two friends I saw on Monday (you know who you are!)
My prayer all evening is "God, please don't let me lose this Joy"......."Please God, let this stay with me forever!! I feel like not only have I been given a second chance at life but I've been given a second chance.............period. I believe God is doing something really, really special and I can't wait to see what it is. Won't you believe with me? I'll be praying for all my faithful bloggers who are following me to experience this same Joy because truly, it is better than any drug. You can't BUY this kind of happiness. It can truly only come from the Lord.
Today, is the happiest day of my entire life!!!! And yeah, I'm secretly praying God lays it on someone's heart to buy me that 2011 NEW Red Camero........and I'll take it fully loaded by the way......with a built in GPS.......and thank you in advance. LOL
Psalm 118:24 This is the day the LORD has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.
Nehemiah 8:10 b "For the joy of the Lord is your strength."
It is my prayer today that you may be filled with pure JOY. That no matter your circumstances, you will CHOOSE JOY!!!!!!!!!!!!
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