Thursday, June 19, 2014

LIfe in Texas

Well, life has just been absolutely wonderful since I got back. I've been going about a million miles an hour traveling to meet new friends and old and family and I'm still not done.  It feels good. It feels nice and it feels completely, 100% right.

One thing I have done for a very, very long time is allow myself to believe that my intuition was off.  I believed it because I spent close to twenty years, allowing someone else to tell me my gut feelings weren't actually my gut feelings, but rather me being judgmental or seeing the worst in them.  Although it is refreshing to discover that ALL those gut feelings were dead on, I have to relearn now to trust my instincts.

Yesterday, I had the opportunity to do so and it ROCKED!! One thing I know I have to do is go with my gut.  It's funny, your gut can cause you so much pain and grief, yet it can be the compass for your life.  We can listen to it or ignore it, but the choice is completely up to us.  If we ignore it, it will then be up to us to take full responsibility for any consequences that follow.

I think so many of us actually have a very strong intuition, but we don't realize it for the gift that it is and we take for granted what an amazing gift it is. It is something we can develop and grow with time.

If I would have listened to what my gut was telling me a very long time ago, I have absolutely no doubt in my mind whatsoever that my life and the lives of my children would have turned out very, very different.  I do believe that everything happens for a reason.  So, in light of that, I think that I have learned some very valuable lessons and that I now just have to take those lessons and use them moving forward.

You might be reading this and think to yourself that your own gut is screaming some stuff at you. Telling you to PAY ATTENTION. Well, listen to it. What I can say is that as women, we are NOT stupid. If you feel like something isn't right, it probably isn't. Listen to it. Don't let anyone else make you feel like you don't know what you are talking about. Someone told me once that you should really be afraid of anyone who makes you doubt your doubts.

I finally have started writing my book about my life from the time I was three until....????  I just finished chapter four! It is exciting, but way more emotional than I ever thought possible.  I can't wait to share it with you!

Oh, and one more thing...this Texas heat is SO DARN HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!