Heather will be getting her permit soon. So I decided that until she gets it, I would go ahead and start teaching her some things. I chose to start with the street signs and what they all mean. On the way to church, there is a really curvy road. Each time I drive down that road I end up having to run both stop signs because I always forget they are there. One morning I was thinking about that road because I knew I would be driving it later that day and I started thinking about road signs and how there should be some kind of warning sign that a stop sign was approaching on that road.
So I am with Heather and I'm telling her about this. Well, lo and behold, as we near the first stop sign there IS a warning sign that a stop sign was coming up. And then there was also one for the second stop sign as well!! As I started pointing out different signs, I realized that over half of these signs I had never even seen after driving these same roads for 2 months! I started to explain to her that since I am an experienced driver, I just know the roads and I guess I just ignored the signs. It is just something I didn't pay attention to. She however was noticing all the signs and asking lots of questions.
I thought to myself that this is how we are as mature Christians. We go to church, we have our quite time, we live in community with others, we pray, so we're good right? Not so much. Not all the time anyway. I look back in my life over the last couple of years and if I take a really good look, I see SO many warning signs that I totally ignored. I see so many areas of compromise. And it doesn't matter if it is the wife or the husband, if one compromises it affects the entire family. I think compromise is such a lure of the enemy. It always starts out small. For example, viewing movies that you probably shouldn't watch but it only has that one tiny scene in it that is really bad so what is the harm, right?
You start listening to music and as you really listen and discover what the lyrics are you realize that it is definitely NOT a good message to be focusing on but hey, you love the song and the beat. It really can't be that big of a deal...it is only a song. Next thing you know, you are making bigger and bigger compromises that end up destroying you and those you love.
Before I was diagnosed with cancer, I would be in the line to pick up Heather from school and I would be so tired and so sleepy that I would fall asleep and she would come to the car just not believing that I was asleep. Some days, I would be like this throughout the day but it didn't happen every day. Since having the cancer removed, I have not had one day like that. That is truly the only "sign" that I had. But maybe it was a warning sign. Maybe I should have realized that something didn't seem right and went to have it checked out. It all worked out in the end and I know God led me to do my own self-exam and here I am today but I just really wonder how many warning signs in our lives that we miss each and every single day.
I think we should pay a lot more attention to these warning signs. I truly feel that the warning signs are God speaking directly into our lives. I think that these warning signs are to let us know that something is approaching. God, speaking to us directly what we should be praying about. Let's ask God when we think we might be seeing one of those signs and ask him what he is trying to show us. Let's not compromise by just overlooking these signs. Because overlooking the small signs only lead to MAJOR, MAJOR problems in your future. If you see a sign, start to pray with all your heart about it. Whatever you do, don't ignore it!!
Friday, July 1, 2011
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Identity Theft
I am so excited that Blogger now has mobile settings so it is much easier to read blogs on your cell phone! YAY!......
When I was 18 years old I discovered that a girl that I had gone to school with since the second grade had been arrested and used my name when she had been arrested. It was a pretty big ordeal and took a lot of effort on my part to clear my name. I had actually been pulled over for speeding in a school zone and was almost arrested because the officer thought I was her saying I was me. Luckily, I had a picture of my friend in my wallet and the officer who pulled me over just so happened to be the officer who had arrested her and new I was indeed not her. But it was still a lot of work for me to clear my name.
I really never thought another thing about it after that. Somehow over all the years, my path and this girls path have crossed many times. And I know for a fact that it was God each time. Just as an example, she left a note on my sons grave and who knows how long it had been there. I happen to go by there and get the note with her number on it. It was legible after rain, wind and who knows what. Then, when my mom died, her mom just so happened to read the obituaries and they came to the funeral. I mean, who reads the obituaries?!?!? Then, when we moved back to Texas from Georgia, my brother happens to see her mom outside of a store in a city that he didn't even live in! At that time, I discovered that she was in prison. So I started communicating with her and helping her out. I won't say all that I did for her because it doesn't really matter. All that matters is that my heart went out to her and I knew she needed a friend. I mean, I had known her since the 2nd grade. Longer than I had known really anyone.Unfortunately, she got out of prison and it wasn't long before she was back on the streets and living the same kind of life she has always known.
Fast forward to now. We move to Georgia and we put in an application to rent a house. Fortunately, we didn't really like the house all that much but we loved the location and the school district. The next day, I get a call that due to my criminal history they would not let us live there. I was totally beside myself. But yet I knew this was all happening for a reason. And honestly, I really didn't think for a second it was my old friend from school. It was my best friend who mentioned that it had to be her. But I just still couldn't believe it. As the details started unfolding, it became clearer that it was her but I still didn't want to believe it. It wasn't until someone from the courthouse in Dallas said her name and started giving me details that I had to come to grips with the fact that she had done this to me again. And this all happened before she went to prison. So it was in 1986 and in 2001.
I would have to write a book to share all the details and drama of what has had to take place to clear my name and get this worked out and it is still a mess. But I just want to say that I am in no way angry with this girl at all. So many people, even church people have told me how upset they would be and all the things they would do to her if they were me. But ya know, the saddest thing of all to me is that she did this way back in 1986 the first time and here it is all these years later and she is still living the same lifestyle and is actually a homeless drug addict. This breaks my heart. Being mad at her and carrying around anger in my heart towards her would only hurt ME. I know that it is only by the grace of God that I can feel this way. And I am just so thankful that I have God and I have Hope.
My life is far from perfect and I actually ask you now to pray for my family and for me personally. I will blog more later but we finally did get a home and move on June 25th. Please pray for peace for us and that every single detail will work out perfectly and smoothly. There is so much to do with getting the girls enrolled and just over all with moving. Deryl's back has been really messed up for a while now and please pray God will protect his back and he will not injure it further as he moves us.
And I just want to say thank you for continuing to read my blog. It truly is therapeutic for me. For some reason, I haven't felt like I have been able to be as transparent as I have been in the past but I feel God tugging at my heart about that. I want this to be a place of encouragement but also a place where you know I am not perfect and YOU are not alone. And I want to know I am not alone too and that you are not perfect either!!
And as always, you can send me your prayer requests to kelley@feelthetatas.com
Love you,
Kelley
When I was 18 years old I discovered that a girl that I had gone to school with since the second grade had been arrested and used my name when she had been arrested. It was a pretty big ordeal and took a lot of effort on my part to clear my name. I had actually been pulled over for speeding in a school zone and was almost arrested because the officer thought I was her saying I was me. Luckily, I had a picture of my friend in my wallet and the officer who pulled me over just so happened to be the officer who had arrested her and new I was indeed not her. But it was still a lot of work for me to clear my name.
I really never thought another thing about it after that. Somehow over all the years, my path and this girls path have crossed many times. And I know for a fact that it was God each time. Just as an example, she left a note on my sons grave and who knows how long it had been there. I happen to go by there and get the note with her number on it. It was legible after rain, wind and who knows what. Then, when my mom died, her mom just so happened to read the obituaries and they came to the funeral. I mean, who reads the obituaries?!?!? Then, when we moved back to Texas from Georgia, my brother happens to see her mom outside of a store in a city that he didn't even live in! At that time, I discovered that she was in prison. So I started communicating with her and helping her out. I won't say all that I did for her because it doesn't really matter. All that matters is that my heart went out to her and I knew she needed a friend. I mean, I had known her since the 2nd grade. Longer than I had known really anyone.Unfortunately, she got out of prison and it wasn't long before she was back on the streets and living the same kind of life she has always known.
Fast forward to now. We move to Georgia and we put in an application to rent a house. Fortunately, we didn't really like the house all that much but we loved the location and the school district. The next day, I get a call that due to my criminal history they would not let us live there. I was totally beside myself. But yet I knew this was all happening for a reason. And honestly, I really didn't think for a second it was my old friend from school. It was my best friend who mentioned that it had to be her. But I just still couldn't believe it. As the details started unfolding, it became clearer that it was her but I still didn't want to believe it. It wasn't until someone from the courthouse in Dallas said her name and started giving me details that I had to come to grips with the fact that she had done this to me again. And this all happened before she went to prison. So it was in 1986 and in 2001.
I would have to write a book to share all the details and drama of what has had to take place to clear my name and get this worked out and it is still a mess. But I just want to say that I am in no way angry with this girl at all. So many people, even church people have told me how upset they would be and all the things they would do to her if they were me. But ya know, the saddest thing of all to me is that she did this way back in 1986 the first time and here it is all these years later and she is still living the same lifestyle and is actually a homeless drug addict. This breaks my heart. Being mad at her and carrying around anger in my heart towards her would only hurt ME. I know that it is only by the grace of God that I can feel this way. And I am just so thankful that I have God and I have Hope.
My life is far from perfect and I actually ask you now to pray for my family and for me personally. I will blog more later but we finally did get a home and move on June 25th. Please pray for peace for us and that every single detail will work out perfectly and smoothly. There is so much to do with getting the girls enrolled and just over all with moving. Deryl's back has been really messed up for a while now and please pray God will protect his back and he will not injure it further as he moves us.
And I just want to say thank you for continuing to read my blog. It truly is therapeutic for me. For some reason, I haven't felt like I have been able to be as transparent as I have been in the past but I feel God tugging at my heart about that. I want this to be a place of encouragement but also a place where you know I am not perfect and YOU are not alone. And I want to know I am not alone too and that you are not perfect either!!
And as always, you can send me your prayer requests to kelley@feelthetatas.com
Love you,
Kelley
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
What's it like to be _________?
Since moving to Georgia, I have a lot more time on my hands. I have been completely aware of something that has been missing in my life and that is peace. Not just any peace but the peace that isn't like the world gives....but peace according to God's word....peace that passes ALL understanding. So I started downloading sermon podcasts. Wow, it has really helped me tremendously. I literally cannot go a day without listening to some kind of teaching. I feel like it is food for my soul. And I have been a complete sponge soaking it all in. Which really reveals to me how dry I have been.
Last week, I listened to a sermon and the lady said to ask yourself the question "What is it like to be married to me?" My first thought was why in the world would I ever ask myself such a question. Just kidding! But seriously, I thought to myself how many different ways I could ask myself that question. It could really be a fill in the blank question.
I believe God will be faithful if we just finally come clean. If we would just ask God to search US. If we would stop pointing fingers at others and point them all back at ourselves. I have discovered in my own life that EVERY single thing I have judged someone else for has turned around and happened to me in my own life!! This is not fun. And I know God wants more for me and for you as well. Are you up for the challenge to ask God to search your OWN heart and reveal to you what YOU need to work on? I hope your answer is a BIG FAT YES!! But if it isn't, start small and just ask God to reveal to you why your answer is a no. I know this is no easy task. I know that it is scary. But I also know God is faithful and he only wants what is best for us. The things in life with the greatest rewards will always cost us something. Only it is never money.
Last week, I listened to a sermon and the lady said to ask yourself the question "What is it like to be married to me?" My first thought was why in the world would I ever ask myself such a question. Just kidding! But seriously, I thought to myself how many different ways I could ask myself that question. It could really be a fill in the blank question.
- What is it like to be MY friend?
- What is it like to be MY child?
- What is it like to be MY boss?
- What is it like to be MY parent?
- What is it like to be MY co-worker?
- What is it like to be MY sibling?
I believe God will be faithful if we just finally come clean. If we would just ask God to search US. If we would stop pointing fingers at others and point them all back at ourselves. I have discovered in my own life that EVERY single thing I have judged someone else for has turned around and happened to me in my own life!! This is not fun. And I know God wants more for me and for you as well. Are you up for the challenge to ask God to search your OWN heart and reveal to you what YOU need to work on? I hope your answer is a BIG FAT YES!! But if it isn't, start small and just ask God to reveal to you why your answer is a no. I know this is no easy task. I know that it is scary. But I also know God is faithful and he only wants what is best for us. The things in life with the greatest rewards will always cost us something. Only it is never money.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Life
Can you love if you have never been loved?
Can you forgive if you have never been forgiven?
Can you give mercy if you have never been given mercy?
Can you believe for healing if you have never been healed?
Wouldn't it be great if we could do all these things first? Experience teaches so much. I remember my mom telling me so many times that she wished SO badly that I would learn from her mistakes instead of making my own. And you know, I wish that for my own children too. But then I wouldn't be me. It is kinda funny how life works...how God works. It takes many people going through many things to reach many people. If only a few people got breast cancer I can assure you that my own experience would have been very different. The fact that SO many people have had it gave me such a wide range of people to talk to. People my age, people who were totally different than me, people who were very similar to me, people I could even reach and help, the list goes on and on.
I don't quite think I will ever in my life understand why we have to go through the things that we go through. I don't understand why people in general have to suffer. I mean, if you look around you at others and in your own life, you are either just coming out of a difficult situation, are currently in one, or will be going in one shortly. I remember Dave Ramsey saying once that everyone has a MAJOR situation once every 10 years. If this is true, then I shouldn't have any more major events in my life for another 40 years. Because I have had 4 MAJOR events in the last 4 years. All of them literally back to back with only a month or so break in between.
I'm not even sure what I have learned from this yet. I look at the events and still honestly don't understand. But then again I see all kinds of things all around me going on that I don't understand either. But as a friend said to me yesterday...the bible says that the rain falls on the just and the unjust. Well let me just tell you...I'm sick of the forecast. Are you? I'm ready for some stinkin' sunshine. I'm tired of thinking my middle name must be Job. I'm tired of fighting for everything I have ever known. But I know one thing for sure and that is that I will ALWAYS get back up. I may get knocked down and it may appear that I am down for the count but that is always when I get up kicking and screaming.
Sometimes you have to take life by the horns, look it square in the eye and say "I'm not giving up"!!!!!!! I think sometimes we so quickly forget what we are made of. We forget what is deep down inside of us and that is the power and strength to GET BACK UP! I don't know what you are going through right now but whatever you do, don't let it keep ya down. Sometimes we are going to get down. Sometimes it is going to "feel" like you will never get out of your current situation. Sometimes life just really does suck. But think about a time in your life when you DID get back up and you DID overcome a hard time. Then hold onto that. Never stop dreaming. And whatever you do...never, ever, ever give up.
Can you forgive if you have never been forgiven?
Can you give mercy if you have never been given mercy?
Can you believe for healing if you have never been healed?
Wouldn't it be great if we could do all these things first? Experience teaches so much. I remember my mom telling me so many times that she wished SO badly that I would learn from her mistakes instead of making my own. And you know, I wish that for my own children too. But then I wouldn't be me. It is kinda funny how life works...how God works. It takes many people going through many things to reach many people. If only a few people got breast cancer I can assure you that my own experience would have been very different. The fact that SO many people have had it gave me such a wide range of people to talk to. People my age, people who were totally different than me, people who were very similar to me, people I could even reach and help, the list goes on and on.
I don't quite think I will ever in my life understand why we have to go through the things that we go through. I don't understand why people in general have to suffer. I mean, if you look around you at others and in your own life, you are either just coming out of a difficult situation, are currently in one, or will be going in one shortly. I remember Dave Ramsey saying once that everyone has a MAJOR situation once every 10 years. If this is true, then I shouldn't have any more major events in my life for another 40 years. Because I have had 4 MAJOR events in the last 4 years. All of them literally back to back with only a month or so break in between.
I'm not even sure what I have learned from this yet. I look at the events and still honestly don't understand. But then again I see all kinds of things all around me going on that I don't understand either. But as a friend said to me yesterday...the bible says that the rain falls on the just and the unjust. Well let me just tell you...I'm sick of the forecast. Are you? I'm ready for some stinkin' sunshine. I'm tired of thinking my middle name must be Job. I'm tired of fighting for everything I have ever known. But I know one thing for sure and that is that I will ALWAYS get back up. I may get knocked down and it may appear that I am down for the count but that is always when I get up kicking and screaming.
Sometimes you have to take life by the horns, look it square in the eye and say "I'm not giving up"!!!!!!! I think sometimes we so quickly forget what we are made of. We forget what is deep down inside of us and that is the power and strength to GET BACK UP! I don't know what you are going through right now but whatever you do, don't let it keep ya down. Sometimes we are going to get down. Sometimes it is going to "feel" like you will never get out of your current situation. Sometimes life just really does suck. But think about a time in your life when you DID get back up and you DID overcome a hard time. Then hold onto that. Never stop dreaming. And whatever you do...never, ever, ever give up.
Monday, May 9, 2011
Thoughts create
Did you know that thoughts create? Anything that has ever been created started with a single thought. Anything good or bad that happens to us started with a thought. I don't know how guys are but I know for sure that in a woman's mind, we can destroy ourselves with just our thoughts. I blogged a few days ago about me waking up one morning in a complete panic. I think that I have had so many consecutive days where I have been totally focused on keeping my thoughts in line that the enemy is trying a new tactic. Because I woke up this morning and was in a total panic again.
I immediately just started saying over and over and over "Lord, let my thoughts, plans and ideas line up with your will and with your word" It didn't take long and I was fine. I left and went to drop the girls off at school. When I was alone by myself in the car, before I ever got back home, I caught myself 3 different times thinking bad thoughts. But you know what? When I caught myself thinking about lets say for example...one of the thoughts was a memory, I just asked myself if that thought was going to move me closer to God or further away. I thought to myself..."What is this thought going to create in my life?" Now that I am sitting here writing about this, I realize that all three times were a memory of how someone has hurt me. And all three times I realized that thinking about those particular thoughts were only going to bring negativity into my life. To stay focused on those things would only cause me to have insecurities, and to not trust others.
By doing this, it brings so much peace. Honestly, it is peace I haven't been feeling for quite some time now. And we can ALL use some peace in our lives, right? I wonder how different our lives would be if we took EVERY thought captive? It amazes me how we can start out with a single thought and we can let those thoughts take us to some seriously ugly places before we even realize what we are doing to ourselves. So I challenge you as well as myself to try a 24 hour challenge. For the next 24 hours, catch yourself. When you think a thought that is NOT positive, ask yourself what that thought or those "thoughts" are going to create in your life or are currently creating. I think what we will learn together is that we have created a lot of our own stuff in our own lives. And that WE are responsible for a lot more than we want to admit to. But the only way to change it is to take personal responsibility and do something about it!!
You may be thinking "Okay, so now what?" Well, if the thoughts are not creating something that benefits you then you must change that!! Think about some of your fondest memories. Listen to music that lifts you up. Call a friend. Look at pictures of people who make you happy. Reflect on some of your greatest achievements. And while you are thinking about "those" things, ask yourself what you are creating in your life. I am convinced that there will be a huge shift. I am up for the challenge, are you?
I immediately just started saying over and over and over "Lord, let my thoughts, plans and ideas line up with your will and with your word" It didn't take long and I was fine. I left and went to drop the girls off at school. When I was alone by myself in the car, before I ever got back home, I caught myself 3 different times thinking bad thoughts. But you know what? When I caught myself thinking about lets say for example...one of the thoughts was a memory, I just asked myself if that thought was going to move me closer to God or further away. I thought to myself..."What is this thought going to create in my life?" Now that I am sitting here writing about this, I realize that all three times were a memory of how someone has hurt me. And all three times I realized that thinking about those particular thoughts were only going to bring negativity into my life. To stay focused on those things would only cause me to have insecurities, and to not trust others.
By doing this, it brings so much peace. Honestly, it is peace I haven't been feeling for quite some time now. And we can ALL use some peace in our lives, right? I wonder how different our lives would be if we took EVERY thought captive? It amazes me how we can start out with a single thought and we can let those thoughts take us to some seriously ugly places before we even realize what we are doing to ourselves. So I challenge you as well as myself to try a 24 hour challenge. For the next 24 hours, catch yourself. When you think a thought that is NOT positive, ask yourself what that thought or those "thoughts" are going to create in your life or are currently creating. I think what we will learn together is that we have created a lot of our own stuff in our own lives. And that WE are responsible for a lot more than we want to admit to. But the only way to change it is to take personal responsibility and do something about it!!
You may be thinking "Okay, so now what?" Well, if the thoughts are not creating something that benefits you then you must change that!! Think about some of your fondest memories. Listen to music that lifts you up. Call a friend. Look at pictures of people who make you happy. Reflect on some of your greatest achievements. And while you are thinking about "those" things, ask yourself what you are creating in your life. I am convinced that there will be a huge shift. I am up for the challenge, are you?
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Honeysuckle
One of the things I have SO enjoyed being here in Georgia is that every time I go for a walk no matter where it is I am walking, I can smell and see Honeysuckle. I honestly don't have a lot of good memories from my childhood but boy when I smelled that smell it sure brought back some great childhood memories and I felt so blessed and so thankful.
Did you know that our beliefs are wired with emotion? My mentor explains it this way...do you remember where you were on September 11, 2001? Do you remember exactly what you were doing, who you were with, your reaction? The result for ALL Americans after that day because of all the deep emotions we felt was that we are no longer safe. I'm sure we can all think about some of our deepest fears and trace it back to when that belief was wired in. Just like someone who is terrified of dogs. Most likely they were scared by one at some point in their life or bitten by one or something like that. I'm sure you get the point. I can actually hear an 80s song and be instantly transported back to what I was doing when that song was playing. But the bad thing is that I wasn't saved then and didn't live a very good life at that time. So the memories aren't good.
A few days ago I was on a walk, smelling the Honeysuckle and I could also smell someone cooking out. Mmmmm.....it smelled so good. You know what it is like when you smell something like maybe homemade rolls and it just reminds you of your momma's cooking. All of these things kinda relate, don't you think? I started thinking of the good smells, the good emotions, the good beliefs I have. The things that actually bring back GOOD memories. As I smelled that Honeysuckle I instantly thought to myself, I want to wire in a belief right now. So the next time I smell Honeysuckle this is what I will remember. I started praying for my husband and my marriage. I couldn't believe the things that started coming out of my mouth. I just said God I thank you for my marriage! I thank you for my husband! This is the husband YOU have given me! I commit my marriage to you! I ask you Lord that ALL my plans, thoughts and ideas line up with YOUR will....with YOUR word. Lord I pray you would draw my husband back to you. I pray that no matter where Deryl turns that he will bump into you!! Lord God I pray that you would bring scripture to his memory. Lord that you would put a hedge of protection around him so tight that any time he even attempts to get outside of your will that he would be pricked immediately by the thorns of that hedge and run back to you!!
I KNOW that was the Holy Spirit!! I know it! And you know what? Deryl and I went on a walk today at a different place and there was so much Honeysuckle everywhere!! Each time I smelled it, I remembered more and more of my prayer. I just kept praying it again over and over in my head. As we held hands, I just silently spoke that prayer over him. So it worked so mightily!! I know that each time in the future that I smell Honeysuckle, I will be reminded of that prayer. And you know what is SO awesome? That I am convinced that one day when my marriage is FULLY restored, I will smell Honeysuckle and see how far we have come. I will see how faithful God is. I will see HIM and HIS mercy and goodness.
I think the enemy would LOVE nothing more than for us to focus on all the negative beliefs we have. But isn't it so cool that WE have the power to wire in POSITIVE beliefs!?!? I just love that. I love that God gave me this revelation. I challenge you to pray and ask God to help you wire in a belief that HE has for you. And I KNOW He will give you some God size ideas on how to do it. Please let me know what you experience. God is SO awesome and so creative. I can't wait to hear how he blesses you in YOUR life with some awesome new beliefs!! Beliefs that are special and specific for YOU!!!!
Did you know that our beliefs are wired with emotion? My mentor explains it this way...do you remember where you were on September 11, 2001? Do you remember exactly what you were doing, who you were with, your reaction? The result for ALL Americans after that day because of all the deep emotions we felt was that we are no longer safe. I'm sure we can all think about some of our deepest fears and trace it back to when that belief was wired in. Just like someone who is terrified of dogs. Most likely they were scared by one at some point in their life or bitten by one or something like that. I'm sure you get the point. I can actually hear an 80s song and be instantly transported back to what I was doing when that song was playing. But the bad thing is that I wasn't saved then and didn't live a very good life at that time. So the memories aren't good.
A few days ago I was on a walk, smelling the Honeysuckle and I could also smell someone cooking out. Mmmmm.....it smelled so good. You know what it is like when you smell something like maybe homemade rolls and it just reminds you of your momma's cooking. All of these things kinda relate, don't you think? I started thinking of the good smells, the good emotions, the good beliefs I have. The things that actually bring back GOOD memories. As I smelled that Honeysuckle I instantly thought to myself, I want to wire in a belief right now. So the next time I smell Honeysuckle this is what I will remember. I started praying for my husband and my marriage. I couldn't believe the things that started coming out of my mouth. I just said God I thank you for my marriage! I thank you for my husband! This is the husband YOU have given me! I commit my marriage to you! I ask you Lord that ALL my plans, thoughts and ideas line up with YOUR will....with YOUR word. Lord I pray you would draw my husband back to you. I pray that no matter where Deryl turns that he will bump into you!! Lord God I pray that you would bring scripture to his memory. Lord that you would put a hedge of protection around him so tight that any time he even attempts to get outside of your will that he would be pricked immediately by the thorns of that hedge and run back to you!!
I KNOW that was the Holy Spirit!! I know it! And you know what? Deryl and I went on a walk today at a different place and there was so much Honeysuckle everywhere!! Each time I smelled it, I remembered more and more of my prayer. I just kept praying it again over and over in my head. As we held hands, I just silently spoke that prayer over him. So it worked so mightily!! I know that each time in the future that I smell Honeysuckle, I will be reminded of that prayer. And you know what is SO awesome? That I am convinced that one day when my marriage is FULLY restored, I will smell Honeysuckle and see how far we have come. I will see how faithful God is. I will see HIM and HIS mercy and goodness.
I think the enemy would LOVE nothing more than for us to focus on all the negative beliefs we have. But isn't it so cool that WE have the power to wire in POSITIVE beliefs!?!? I just love that. I love that God gave me this revelation. I challenge you to pray and ask God to help you wire in a belief that HE has for you. And I KNOW He will give you some God size ideas on how to do it. Please let me know what you experience. God is SO awesome and so creative. I can't wait to hear how he blesses you in YOUR life with some awesome new beliefs!! Beliefs that are special and specific for YOU!!!!
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Through the Storm
Last night when I was at church I was in such a grumpy and sad mood. I hate being like that but it was just one of those times where I couldn't snap out of it no matter what I tried. We started singing the song "Nothing is impossible". I started thinking to myself, am I going to praise God "when" I see him come through for me? Or am I going to stand on His word and praise him "UNTIL" he comes through?
I think it is definitely so much easier to wait to see if he will answer our prayers. But that mentality is not faith at all. It is really holding onto and believing that the worst will actually happen and there is only a slim chance God's word is true and that he will do what He says in His word he will do.
The only way for me or you to praise Him in the storm is to just do it. I decided that I wanted to praise him through it, during it and wait for the expected, promised results. This morning I woke up in a panic. I know that HAS to be the enemy. I immediately started quoting the word and praying and asking God to give me my hope for today. I went and looked at Facebook and a friend of mine had left this on my wall.
I think it is definitely so much easier to wait to see if he will answer our prayers. But that mentality is not faith at all. It is really holding onto and believing that the worst will actually happen and there is only a slim chance God's word is true and that he will do what He says in His word he will do.
The only way for me or you to praise Him in the storm is to just do it. I decided that I wanted to praise him through it, during it and wait for the expected, promised results. This morning I woke up in a panic. I know that HAS to be the enemy. I immediately started quoting the word and praying and asking God to give me my hope for today. I went and looked at Facebook and a friend of mine had left this on my wall.
Is there anything that you are having a hard time believing God for? Maybe it is just me! But I think that we ALL have "something" we have been WAITING on God to come through for us on. Maybe some things are bigger than others but if it is what YOU are waiting on then it is important to YOU. If you are hoping God will heal your marriage or heal your body, they are both important to GOD. Let's start praising Him while we wait for His promises to be fulfilled in our lives!!
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