Thursday, December 2, 2010

The greatest day of my life!!!!!

Have you seen the new 2011 Camero's?  Oh goodness they are so fine!! I saw one yesterday that was the most beautiful red I have ever seen. I sure would love to have one of those!! But you know, before this new one, you couldn't convince me a new Camero could be better than the old ones. That is kinda like me today. FINALLY, I am baaaaaaaack!!!!!! It is me but only a much better version. Let me explain.

Excitement has been building within me since November 22nd when I had my reconstruction surgery. I mean, I have so much to be grateful for. My hair is coming back, I got my perfect boobs, no more chemo, I feel great, I'm alive! I have wondered for MONTHS if I would ever be like my old self. Like those old Camero's. But you know what, the 2011 version is WAY better.....who would have thought? 

The last three days I have felt something within me building up. Something great. I have had such an incredible week. Monday, a friend came by and gave me a very special gift. The same day since I couldn't drive, another very dear friend brought me a homemade lunch and we got to visit and I don't even think we mentioned the word Cancer! Tuesday, I started having much less pain from the surgery. Today, I have felt great. I woke up this morning and was straightening up the chairs in my kitchen and I, for no reason at all just said out loud...... "This is the day that YOU have made Lord and I WILL rejoice and be glad in it". I went in to work and had a very productive day. 

All day, this "something" was continuing to build. Almost with every breath it got bigger and bigger. I went to our annual Christmas service where we sing carols, make cards and ornaments, everyone eats together, it is just a ton of fun. I went there tonight with hair and no hat or scarf. I talked to so many of my friends and we didn't talk about cancer. I even went in the bathroom and showed one of my peeps my new boobs! I had a blast. I felt like "ME" again! I guess I just feel like this thing is FINALLY coming to a close and I can move on with my life. 

Just thinking about New Year's Eve is so exciting to me. It is going to be the most special New Year's Eve of my life. God is doing something in me....Something BIG. I don't know what it is but I can feel it. Let me just tell you that although nothing MAJOR has happened to me, today has been the BEST day of my ENTIRE life. Now isn't that just something? The fact that I can have true joy for no big reason is amazing to me. The verse that says "The joy of the Lord is my strength" has come alive in my heart. 

I know at some point all of us have felt like a nobody. Maybe this is you. I have felt this way many times. But oh dear child, God has already put something so amazing in you. HE made you and HE loves you just the way you are right now. He loves you and desires SO very much for your life. Do you realize that if you saw yourself the way HE sees you, you would do some seriously amazing things!! I think we should all start praying for God to allow us to see others how he sees them and to allow us to see ourselves like HE does!! I believe that we would all have TRUE JOY. I can't even explain how I feel right now. I'm on top of the world, the universe. Jumping up and down on the inside. It is 12:45 am and I am WIDE awake so full of joy. 

It is sad to say that I don't think this has happened to me not one single day in my ENTIRE life. And I am betting there are many of you who can relate to me. I can't even describe this feeling of joy. It is just PURE joy. So I think God is showing me to CHOOSE joy. When I am down and life has thrown me a curve ball, I can CHOOSE joy!! 

I have been questioning God. I have been having some real "Come to Jesus" talks with him! LOL
I have been asking some hard questions of him and throwing his own word at him asking him to prove it to me. No matter what!!.....I will love Him. But if His word is true then he needs to start showing me, that is for sure and this is exactly how I have been talking to Him. Well this week, He is showing me. And it started with the two friends I saw on Monday (you know who you are!)

My prayer all evening is "God, please don't let me lose this Joy"......."Please God, let this stay with me forever!! I feel like not only have I been given a second chance at life but I've been given a second chance.............period. I believe God is doing something really, really special and I can't wait to see what it is. Won't you believe with me? I'll be praying for all my faithful bloggers who are following me to experience this same Joy because truly, it is better than any drug. You can't BUY this kind of happiness. It can truly only come from the Lord. 

Today, is the happiest day of my entire life!!!! And yeah, I'm secretly praying God lays it on someone's heart to buy me that 2011 NEW Red Camero........and I'll take it fully loaded by the way......with a built in GPS.......and thank you in advance. LOL

Psalm 118:24 This is the day the LORD has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.

Nehemiah 8:10 b  "For the joy of the Lord is your strength."   

It is my prayer today that you may be filled with pure JOY. That no matter your circumstances, you will CHOOSE JOY!!!!!!!!!!!!


  1. kelley. that was beautiful. truly inspiring. thank you for sharing this! as far as the "all the chemo ladies" i'm in. if you'll still have me. :) email me your lyrics woman :) :)

  2. Kelley,
    Thank you for posting this today. And getting on facebook and telling me to come read it. Thank you for being so open and honest through this whole thing. I needed to hear this message tonight. I love ya and we will definitely go get coffee soon. And now your insomnia buddy is going to try and sleep :-). hehe

  3. KElly I read your blog all the time and have never commented before. i justwanted you to know that what you wrotehas made my day start even better.

    Emily Strawn

  4. Kelly,

    You may already know this....the Camaro will be offering a convertible soon!

    And thanks for your your prayers of JOY !!! They are working well today :)

    Michael Huscheck

  5. I love this blog Kelley! "Make a Joyful Noise! We worship a Mighty God!"

  6. Oh I love this post! Just reading it inspired me! I love you so much, and I am so blessed to have witnessed this journey. I rejoice with you that the C chapter is over. Here's a verse for the next chapter:
    "Infirmity will NOT return a 2nd time." Nahum 1:9
    love you! Beth
    PS-If I had the money, I would buy you a new Camero!!

  7. Kelley!! Loved Loved Loved reading this today!! I am so happy for you... I hope that joy stays with you always! Such a wonderful woman of God and such an inspiration to all of us women that have the privilege of knowing you! Love you!

  8. Hey girlie!!! It is so weird that you said all of what you said!!! I feel that joy too.. it is unbelievable, inspirational, it IS the joy that only
    God can show us I believe!!! Last night was awesome for me even though it was not really that big of a deal, I felt that overwhelming sense of JOY to be alive, for family , for friends, for new boobs (lol) but unable to put my finger on what it was but it was the joy you describe. How amazing is that!!! I love you so much and i am glad to call you my friend and i know that God has big plans for you as well as for me and i cant wait to see what he has in store!! all my love Shai