Friday, May 21, 2010

Bandages Off

Kelley says.................

I got up this morning and my sister took me to a friends salon that is real close to the house to get my hair washed and dried. It was so nice of her to do that for me. I don't feel so gross now. Then, it was off to my post-op appointment with Dr. Kunkle in Fort Worth. Before I saw him, his nurse came in and took off all of the gauze, tape and bandages of any kind. My sister and Deryl were sitting in the room. I didn't want to be left alone so I let them stay in the room with me. I didn't even look. I still haven't looked. Everyone said I was already healing really, really good. 

It was at this moment that the reality of what all I am really going through started to hit me. How much I can't believe I am sitting here in pain having just had every cell good or bad removed from both of my breasts to help me live.  The doctor came in to talk to me and he was just so nice. Deryl & my sister Pam have just been so helpful to me. I thought I would never want for Deryl to see me like this but he has so much love for me that just pours out of him each and every time he looks at me. 

I felt bad for my sister too because she took care of my moms drains. I know this whole experience must bring back many memories for her. But I tell you what, she is a real trooper. I know it is hard for them to see me like this. The caretakers see it all. They see when I am crying, they see when I go to the bathroom, they see when I laugh or make a joke, they see when I am writhing in pain. So they see the good, the bad and the really ugly. But they just keep on keepin' on. Thank you for all your prayers and for all your support. And a great big thank you to everyone who has been wearing pink in my honor. That has made me feel so good!!



1 comment:

  1. Hey missy. Been thinking of you constantly. I just flew back into today a few hours ago and I cannot wait to see you. I am bringing dinner on Thursday, but if you want company before then just let me know. Its one of those things where I dont know when is too soon...and when it is that I am waiting too long. Ya know. Just know I love you and I am thinking AND praying for you constantly. I just miss your smile. I will see it soon. Love, Tanna